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To die, to sleep--
To sleep, perchance to dream. Ay, there's the rub,
For in that sleep of death what dreans may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause."
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[06 Mar 2005|12:26pm] |
haha nice
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[05 Mar 2005|02:24pm] |
I HATE MSN MESSGENER...IT KEEPS KICKING ME OFF AND NOT LETTING ME SIGN BACK IN!!
okay, i'm done.
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[04 Mar 2005|09:56pm] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) xtroubledheartx
New eljay name. Friends Only, comment and give me a good reason why I should add you. I will still be posting once in a while on this one so keep this one on your list if you want.
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[04 Mar 2005|04:12pm] |
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i made a new livejournal and i'm trying to customize it and it's kicking my ass. Anyone willing to help me?
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[04 Mar 2005|09:50am] |
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Well, I went to school for about 10 min this morning and then came home and puked my guts out. I hate being sick and I don't want to miss anymore school because that just means more homework when I get back. Oh well, I'll survive...I hope. I knew this was going to happen sooner or later. I'm all shakey and I can't stop and my stomach hurts and I still feel like I'm going to throw up. At least today is a minimum day and I'm not missing much.
Life has been well...life I guess. There has been some good things and some bad things. I found out yesterday that my thyroid results were normal so I'm not dying. Thats a good thing. Hopefully they won't run anymore tests on me cause I'm tired of them.
How much more bs can I take in life? I just keep putting up with things and shoving them in the back of my head so I don't have to worry about them and then sooner or later my head gets so filled up and my emotions get so fucked over that I just exploded at everyone. I feel that happening again. I broke down yesterday in front of Hilary because I just couldn't take things anymore. I'm sorry that you had to see me like that Hilary. I can't crying in front of people but I just couldn't help it. Way too much shit going on right now. I just can't handle any more disappointments in my life. Thats all my life is, one big disappointment and you would think that I would be used to them by now. Well, from certain people I am but in general I'm not and they hurt me everytime they happen. Which is like everyday, but still. Some of the things I get disappointed about people don't know about it cause I don't say anything. I feel that when I get disappointed, its for stupid reason and I get embarrassed by it and feel stupid. So I figure the best thing is not to tell anyone why I'm upset. I don't know. I don't think any of this is making sense so I'm just going to stop.
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[28 Feb 2005|08:11pm] |
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I haven't updated in a while. Just got back from 6th grade camp. Had a blast but now I have so much homework that I don't understand and I don't want my grades to drop. Here are some pictures that Bethany took and said I could post. YAY for Bethany.
( But I just found someone special )
And that's really something special
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[19 Feb 2005|11:18pm] |
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So yah tonight...tonight was the best!
why do you have to be so amazing?
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[19 Feb 2005|01:02am] |
EEP!
that is all
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[18 Feb 2005|04:37pm] |
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EEEEEPP!!! I get to hang out with Tyler tonight hopefully, if I can find someone to go with me. I'm trying to get ahold of Bethany but she's at work. Hmmmmm. I hope I get to go tonight cause that means I get to see him twice this weekend and it would make this weekend the best weekend ever!!!!!!! I'm going to see him tomorrow but the parental units aren't making me take anyone with me then. They're weird. Yup Yup Yup so I'm pretty happy. Okay, I'll update later.
EEEP!! ZOMBIES!!
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[16 Feb 2005|10:45pm] |
UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE!!!
Tyler told me to update my eljay but I really don't have anything to say. ummmmmm..... nothing is coming to mind.
p.s. i hope this weekend works out!
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[14 Feb 2005|09:01pm] |
This is what happens when you carry ten 50lb bags of salt in the rain:
The End
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[14 Feb 2005|05:08pm] |
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So today wasn't a totally crappy day. I got 3 valentines day cards.
( Cupid Sucks )
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[13 Feb 2005|08:41pm] |
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Something weird just happened to me right now. So the other day when Stacey and I were in Modesto, we stopped at Guitar Center so I could get strings. I was talking to the guy behind the counter cause I couldn't remember what strings I got last time and stuff so I was trying to remember. We started talking and I guess he used to live in Patterson and stuff like that but I don't ever remember seeing him. Anyways, he was really cute. So I go to pay for my strings and he had to get one of the managers to get him changed so we were talking more. After he handed me my changed he said he was sorry that it took so long and I was like don't worry about it, I had nothing else better to do. He said that I should stick around and talk to him for a little longer but I had stacey in the car so I told him I had a friend waiting in the car so I had to leave. Well you know when you buy things from there they ask you your name and phone number and stuff to put in the computer. Well I guess he copied my phone number down or something cause he called my grandmas house and left his number for me to call him back. He told my grandma that if I needed ANYTHING to just give him a call. My grandma was laughing when she told me this cause she said he really emphasized the word anything. Haha, why do random things like this happen to me?
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[10 Feb 2005|07:10pm] |
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Valentines Day is Monday. I don't know how I feel about that. I'll probably just boycott it like I do every year. My aunt bought me a shirt that says "Love is like a rollercoaster, when it's done, you throw up." I'm wearing that probably. I don't know.
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[09 Feb 2005|09:39pm] |
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I got to meet this boy tonight. It was great. Coolest boy ever!
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[07 Feb 2005|10:22pm] |
MY NEW TOY!!!
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